Drawing Number 2

Still getting back into the swing of things.  I want to push them more, they just aren't clicking.  I want to see the skeletal structure inside the body, and then the skin looks like it's over it.  Like the skin is transparent,so it looks as though the insides are literally disappearing or something.  This doesn't really make sense in words.  I haven't quite got it yet, and it is making very nervous. Have been doing more research.

Mouth

I changed her mouth

Checked out some anatomy books to help with my drawings. Need to figure out accurately whats where.  I was hoping to rely on my own body, but I am no longer skinny enough.  However, the diagrams and the readings that accompany them are very helpful.  We are always told in class to take this into consideration, but I always seem to forget.

Crash

“I’d wish the reader, in the course of falling into one of my stories, to grow more and more estranged from the familiar, until by the end of the story he or she, if only for a moment, sees the world as a mysterious and surprising place. After all, our nervous systems are arranged for practical ends—we see what’s immediately useful to us and ignore the rest. In this sense, art is a method of destruction. It turns our attention away from the useful, it allows us to see things usually obscured by habit—it invites us to witness the thrilling strangeness of the world.”

Steven Millhauser from this excellent interview by Marc Chénetier. I’ve been reading and re-reading his masterful short stories lately.
*taken from the blog http://crashinglybeautiful.tumblr.com/

Nighttime

While I was searching for the most beautiful hiding place I could find..I wanted to speak about the desire to find visual beauty in nighttime searches and in an attempt to erase loneliness, the sadness of telling a person, over and over, how much you love and desire them.
-Laurel Nakadate: Only the Lonely



http://www.nakadate.net/

Inertia

inertia-where to stand still may mean to be left behind

Incomplete

Well, this is the first attempt at a new large drawing.  It is about my armspan in width and about 5ft high.  I overworked it.  I have to remove it from my wall.

“Don’t be afraid, the darkness you’re in is no greater than the darkness inside your own body, they are two darknesses separated by a skin. I bet you’ve never thought of that, you carry a darkness about with you all the time and that doesn’t frighten you … my dear chap, you have to learn to live with the darkness outside just as you learned to live with the darkness inside.”

José Saramago. Today in the River.
*taken from http://crashinglybeautiful.tumblr.com/

The Art of Listening

http://beautywelove.blogspot.com/2011/09/listen-with-ease.html

it is a grace to beable to listen with ease

Sketch

Little Studies

Hands

I started out by drawing these three hands to get both my own hands moving and to figure out my hands within the context of my drawings.  I wanted to create more of a melting, disintegrateing effect than in my previous work. I don't know what I think, until I know what I think. I figure I will just have to see how they come out.

Past

Past work..thinking about drawings

Wide Awake Club

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k8JZHiCeADQ&feature=related

pop at the very tail end of the eighties.  I've been up all night, cause you know, that's what rock people do.

Paper Tigers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwbzs-RjQJk

Drawing got the better of me today. I wish that this feeling would go away

Ian Francis Paintings

Disappearing idealized female form

namesake

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7W3tgliTZLs

first and foremost, a dark and seductive lullaby for the sleepless

disclaimer

blogging is totally new to me. i've never had a myspace and reluctantly got a facebook. i don't tweet nor do i tumbl. the internet is interesting because it is at once the easiest place to be found, but the quickest place to get lost in.  as a person who thinks alot about the act of disappearing, it seems weird to have an address and presence, but nonetheless I am going to try. i think its important to get outside of myself because reality really isn't all that terrible. with that being said i am interested in the spirtual realm, whatever that means because i don't even know. if anything i just think i like it because it seems to be a way of making people not feel so alone,lost, and like they want to disappear.